Definition: Creating unnecessary problems for oneself, or intentionally causing destruction of ones own goals.
Most of my life I have always put myself last. Making sure other people were taken care of and happy and have everything they needed or wanted before maybe taking care of myself.
I have so much to say I don’t even know where to start. Finally.
Today is September 10th, by the time I post this it won’t be your birthday anymore, but as I sat down to write I couldn’t keep my mind from going back to you. You would have been 20 years old tomorrow, I can only imagine the man you would be becoming.
Here’s the thing. There’s a few things I have learned so far in my 21 years of life and some of them have been real hard to come to terms with. Some of them obviously being that you don’t always get what you want, Santa and the Easter Bunny aren’t real, that Justin Bieber is probably never going to love me, and lastly and most importantly was that there is nothing wrong with me. Yeah yeah I know it’s cheesy and it’s redundant but it’s true. There is nothing wrong with you or me and there nothing for us to be so upset at ourselves for. (more…)