Today is September 10th, by the time I post this it won’t be your birthday anymore, but as I sat down to write I couldn’t keep my mind from going back to you. You would have been 20 years old tomorrow, I can only imagine the man you would be becoming.
You know when life feels like it’s just on repeat? Nothing is new or interesting and the same thoughts going in and out your mind and you’re doing everything on your to-do list but the list repeatedly stays the same. Well, at least for me that has been the feeling lately. I know what I want to achieve but not sure what exactly I’m going to do or what exactly my next move is. I don’t have a map planned out of what to do to reach all the places I want to be. I’ve been stuck on that for some time now, it’s worrisome to not know if each decision is the right one or if each step you take is closer or further from where you’re trying to go. I have also come to the conclusion that that’s okay and that each wrong decision is one step closer to the right one and that I will get to where I’m trying to go as long as I don’t stop looking for what that is. (more…)
Feelings are the strangest things I think, they’re these things you feel in your chest and your heart and you can’t control them. And sometimes they hurt, sometimes we know why and sometimes we don’t, but that doesn’t change the fact that we feel them. (more…)
A letter to my younger self.
I was going to start this whole blogging thing out slow because opening myself up too much terrifies me, but here we go. (more…)