Fear of Creativity

It can be terrifying to want something. It can be even more terrifying to actually admit it. Especially with times being so strange, these days can feel very discouraging. Most of the time it would be easier to just settle. Settling is safe, it doesn’t require any work, inspiration, or creativity. 

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Black Lives Matter

There is no perfect way to put into words Americas inhumane, horrifying, and heartbreaking current events. Regardless, I hope you will still read what I have to say. Along with everyone else, my head hurts, my heart hurts, and I’m scared. I am also angry, however my intent is to speak with love as I believe that is how others will be most willing to listen. 

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Self Discipline

Self discipline is one area in my life that I have been trying to improve for what feels like forever. I would love to not have to spend any time resisting temptations or internally fighting myself. I have realized that where I lack self discipline, I also lack self awareness. Awareness is more than knowing what your preferences are and knowing your plan for the day. It’s the motivation, why you do what you do, noticing how you relate to others – it’s the deep stuff. It’s knowing who you are and what you’re doing. Once you are self aware, self discipline comes much easier.  (more…)

Setting Boundaries

Every relationship in your life is based on boundaries. They are the standards you set for what you tolerate. Your family treats you a certain way because they know exactly how far they can push you. The people you surround yourself with treat you the way that they do because they see how you treat yourself. They know your boundaries. If you think about it, the way you talk, what you talk about, and the level of respect expected is determined by a person’s limits. It’s necessary. (more…)

“Am I Where I’m Supposed To Be?”

I know I’m not the only one who has ever asked myself this. This has been kind of sitting in the back of my mind for a while and I felt like now was a good time to bring attention to it. Lately I have become more aware of little anxious feelings I’ve been getting, mostly at night. It’s almost like I can’t breathe, and I mean obviously it’s not that I truly can’t because my breathing is just fine, but I can feel something on my chest so it’s just seems harder, you know? It’s nothing like the suffocating feeling I’ve gotten before that I talked about here, but I’m hoping by the end of this you’ll know what I’m talking about. (more…)

Dear Mikey,

Today is September 10th, by the time I post this it won’t be your birthday anymore, but as I sat down to write I couldn’t keep my mind from going back to you. You would have been 20 years old tomorrow, I can only imagine the man you would be becoming.

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What You’re Looking For

Here’s the thing. There’s a few things I have learned so far in my 21 years of life and some of them have been real hard to come to terms with. Some of them obviously being that you don’t always get what you want, Santa and the Easter Bunny aren’t real, that Justin Bieber is probably never going to love me, and lastly and most importantly was that there is nothing wrong with me. Yeah yeah I know it’s cheesy and it’s redundant but it’s true. There is nothing wrong with you or me and there nothing for us to be so upset at ourselves for. (more…)

Reminder

I wanted to write this post and not exactly have a topic, kind of just to chat with you guys. (more…)