It can be terrifying to want something. It can be even more terrifying to actually admit it. Especially with times being so strange, these days can feel very discouraging. Most of the time it would be easier to just settle. Settling is safe, it doesn’t require any work, inspiration, or creativity.
I think at some level we all want to do something creative, many just use the excuse that they don’t feel inspired, as if it is going to just appear one day. Creativity can be whatever you want it to be, whatever makes you feel alive and curious and excited. I think it just seems to pull you out of the repetitive, zombie feeling you can find yourself in for days or weeks on end. When you wake up, spend your day doing things you dread, and repeat this cycle, it becomes draining. It might even be worse to be indifferent to your situation. If you hate it you might feel some motivation to change, or at the very least put in some effort into feeling a certain way. But when you think, “hey things aren’t so bad, what’s the point of changing anything?” I think it makes you feel like a shell of yourself, like you’re just living in a void.
Obviously it would be ridiculous to just throw everything out the window, you have responsibilities. But you can start by finding something that lights a spark in your brain, something that makes you excited whether it’s sunny or cloudy, when the work gets hard, when the nights are late and you’re exhausted, and makes you want to learn everyday. Something that isn’t just a shell of you. Personally, many of my best ideas come to me when I’m working out. It just improves my mood and I feel like I can see my vision for myself the most clearly. What makes you feel good? Who makes you feel like the best version of yourself? That is where creativity happens. The feeling you get when you’re so focused and have perfect clarity for how to actually create something that represents the reasoning for your work, has to be a top 10 feeling. It gives you a reason to try something, to have a purpose, and to put your work into something besides your own mind.
Creativity is all of those great things. It is also the hardest and most terrifying thing I’ve ever done. It can be actually painful sometimes. Anything and everything you do, creates a place to be criticized and judged. You know it will happen. Your thing won’t be someone’s favorite thing and you can pretend you don’t care but you know you do. This is why you cling on to the excuse that you’re not inspired. It’s an excuse because you know what you want, you just choose to avoid it. You like the idea that: someday I will start my blog, my script, my art, my garden, someday I will have what I want. But today is too scary, today is too soon to start what I want to be doing forever. So, we just call it a lack of inspiration. Maybe tomorrow or maybe when you have more free time or when things settle down. Until you realize a year has passed and you have nothing to show for it.
You have to call yourself out for these things. Don’t consistently give yourself a pass for leaving things unfinished and wonder why you aren’t doing better. I have been feeling overwhelmingly frustrated with myself for not doing enough of what I know I need to be doing. I can call myself out when I am doing things that feel productive, but is actually just procrastination. I don’t need reassurance or to be told I am doing enough by someone else’s standards. You will not wake up to birds chirping and the smell of coffee and just know it’s time for a masterpiece. Instead, you’ll think about it and overthink about it, then it’ll be 2 AM and you’ll give it a shot. It’ll be awful. Then you’ll try again, and again, and it’ll become all you can think about and you’ll wonder what the hell you’ve got yourself into. You’ll probably be embarrassed and not want anyone to see it. Until you start to realize maybe it isn’t that bad, or bad at all for that matter, and you forget that you’re not inspired.
Uninspiration will kill all of your dreams, ideas and excitement if you give it the power to. You can also decide not to. Uninspiration isn’t even an actual word, it’s just what people call being scared of trying and failing or creating something “bad” or just acknowledging that they want something. There is no “key to inspiration”, just open the website, read the book, buy the paint, and do whatever makes you scared, curious, excited and lights you up all at the same time.
Thanks for reading ☀️
Just say “F” it and go for it!
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If ya don’t step forward, even tentatively, you’re standing still.
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Learnt this from experience 🤣
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Great article! Everything you have said is true.
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Phenomenal post, very inspiring. 🙂
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Someone once said “You don’t drown by falling in the water.You drown by staying there”. “Get up stand up!!!!”
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Wow yes, totally feel this!
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It is so true! The only way to feel inspired is to let yourself be inspired, that’s just it.
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True!
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I really needed this. I do agree with you! sometimes the moment we keep looking for is actually NOW
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I really needed this. More than I knew it. As a new blogger its hard to stay inspired, taking the leap is so important.
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YES! I always thought I wasn’t creative. I don’t have nice handwriting, I can’t draw or paint and I can’t sing for my life. Though just as you wrote, creativity is so much more than that! Thank you!
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AMAZING WORK
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Hello! Thank you for spreading so many inspiring ideas. I nominated you for the Sunshine Blogging Award! It’s fitting for you and your work. If you want to see the post I mad about it, here it is. https://bustlingmindblankverse.wordpress.com/2020/07/02/the-sunshine-blogger-award/
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Awesome read!
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Fear of creativity is indeed a disorder that I’m affected with. Thank you for bringing this up.
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Great thoughts here. Good job. I’m back from an absence. Maybe you’ll stop by. I have new writing tactics to share. 🙂
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I so love your writing, My Dear! This post is too wonderful and wise! Perfect capture of Wishing our lives away on the illusion of “Someday”! You should repost this about every six months! There is a quote I love, I hope I haven’t sent it to you already but it really goes so well with the idea and topic of this post. It’s one you should put on a post-it note and keep on your bathroom mirror:
“What have you done today, to make your dreams come true?” Nothing like have a call to report each day to keep you focused.
Here is a really great post by Alanna Pass on, “Someday” I think you will love and might want to reblog??
https://byalannapass.com/2018/05/27/someday-and-the-power-of-now/
Thanks again, Dear for Posting such a vital and needed piece!
xoxox 😘💕🌹✨
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PLEASE – Do Not Miss Reading This Great Post!!
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