I wanted to write this post and not exactly have a topic, kind of just to chat with you guys.
I want to make sure my blog stays an honest and open place for me to write and share what’s on my mind. I want it to be a place where you come when you’re down and realize that you’re not alone, pain and suffering doesn’t have to last forever, and after reading my posts I hope it makes you feel better. I genuinely and completely believe that if you need time to just take a break then take it and do not feel bad about it, you need that time, but I also want to push every single person who comes here to do better, to get outside of their comfort zones and to do something that you really want to do even if it scares you. I’m doing all of these things and I hope that by talking about it makes it easier for you.
I have recently been trying to teach myself new things, trying to figure out what my next step is, trying to expand and meet people who care about the same things that I do. While doing all of those things I think in the back of my mind I have been putting a lot of extra pressure on myself for what my next post will be, I found myself worrying that I wouldn’t know what to talk about since I have been keeping busy and I found myself worrying what people would think. I felt like that by not knowing exactly what topic was next meant that I was falling off track or that I wasn’t being productive enough. I sat down to write today and while I was thinking about what it was I wanted to write about, I realized that I wasn’t thinking about what I wanted to write, I was thinking about what my readers wanted me to write, which isn’t exactly why I started this whole blog. I have been reading a lot of blogs lately and I think I found myself comparing my blog to others and feeling like I wasn’t doing well enough. I know that I have a lot to learn still, but comparing myself to others is not going to make me any better of a writer and in fact would probably make me a worse writer instead.
After thinking about it and getting inside my head I caught myself, I shouldn’t be getting so upset at myself. I love doing this blog, and I love that this is a place that I can be creative and don’t hold back, and I feel so so thankful that so many people have been benefiting from it. Instead of writing whatever topic I was forcing myself to talk about, i just decided to start typing and by now although this post isn’t as focused on one topic and usual, I know that its real and that’s exactly what I want it to be.
I am so proud of where I am mentally, physically and emotionally. I’m so far from where I know I will go but i’m far from where I started. I think it’s important for myself and everyone else to recognize that we all still have a long way to go, whatever it is you’re dealing with or whatever it is you’re trying to achieve, but don’t forget about how far you are from where you started.
I’m feeling very sentimental tonight, this blog means the world to me and the amount of love I have gotten warms my heart so much. There’s not even a word to describe the feeling when I see a post make a difference in some of your lives.
Every single one of you deserves to chase whatever it is you’re after, to ditch whatever it is that’s holding you back, and to find something that makes you excited about every day. Most importantly you deserve to feel real happiness, like the world isn’t against you, like you aren’t just trying to get through the day again and again.. but I hope you never feel like you cant get through it, because you can and you will. If you’re going through a rough time, its just a season, it might feel exhausting but it will pass.
If you have found something that makes you happy, keep chasing it. You will never run out of new things to make you happy or things to be proud of.
I know there are so many possibilities for everyone and I would hate for anyone to let that go to waste.
I’m sorry this post is a bit all over the place, that’s kind of where my brain has been.
Lastly, the mailing list for my first 5,000 followers is justtttt about finished!
I have started writing your letters and will keep you updated when they get sent out.
If you still want to be added to my mail list please do! Just send a mailing address to firstname.lastname@example.org and I will add you!!
Thanks for reading☀️☀️☀️