Losing Yourself

Feelings are the strangest things I think, they’re these things you feel in your chest and your heart and you can’t control them. And sometimes they hurt, sometimes we know why and sometimes we don’t, but that doesn’t change the fact that we feel them. 

Its hard to work on yourself, it’s probably one of the hardest things I’ve had to do if not the hardest. Beginning to work on yourself is the hardest part I think, because you have to force yourself to face all the things you need to work on. I let people walk all over me when I knew it wasn’t best for me, I let toxic people stay in my life because I was too scared to say they weren’t good for me, I went the extra mile and inconvenienced myself for people that would never do the same for me. I did all these things while also feeling like I was the problem in peoples lives, I felt like was making peoples lives harder than they should be. I felt sad and helpless and there was no reason to feel like this but I did and it was a bad feeling let me tell ya.
You cant make a change if you don’t want it 100%, and you won’t make a change if you don’t put all of your effort into it. Putting half of your effort in is only going to make you feel disappointed in yourself for not seeing results. So I did that, and I came a very long way, I felt like myself for the first time in as long as I could remember. And then something happens and you feel lost again, you feel like all the progress you made went right out the window and you start feeling things that are familiar to the old you, there doesn’t have to be a reason for this happening, sometimes it just does and you feel like you can’t control it.
When you lose yourself, it’s okay to feel those feelings. Don’t try to hold them back because they’ll get stuck and you’ll never be able to get rid of them. Use those feelings as motivation to take care of yourself. And don’t feel like you have to do it alone, you don’t. I would never have made it as far as I have by myself. Its okay to lose yourself once in awhile, you aren’t any less strong for coming so far and you are going to get back to where you were. You’ve done it before and you’ll do it again and it will be easier this time. You’ve already proved to yourself that you can do it and you deserve it. You have not become the person you used to be just because you feel those things. You are still the strong person that overcame everything this far. It isn’t easy, it really is hard work, but you’ll be so glad you put that work into yourself. You owe it to yourself to be the best that you can be.

Thanks for reading ☀️☀️☀️

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53 thoughts on “Losing Yourself

  1. I do not know who the original writer is of this quote, but here it goes: “You can’t pour from an empty cup”. It is good to read that others feel like I do, and that we need to stay away from those who just “keep drinking” from that cup, and do not care when we are “empty”. So yes, when we fall down, we get up, but it is OK to stay down a bit to recollect your strength and balance first.

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  2. I can so relate when you said this, “I let people walk all over me when I knew it wasn’t best for me, I let toxic people stay in my life because I was too scared to say they weren’t good for me, I went the extra mile and inconvenienced myself for people that would never do the same for me.” When I was in high school, in my college years and in my early adult years, my parents would say a certain friend here and there was not a good friend. I was hurt by what they said, but in retrospect they were right. These “friends” used me and my efforts to help and never gave anything in return but a bunch of hurt. And in the end, I felt like I was the problem. Now in my late 30s, I am finally mourning the loss of these friendships, and really looking for and pouring my life into mutually beneficial friendships. If it isn’t mutually beneficial, I pour less into a relationship; it ends up being a “see you when I see you” sort of relationship. It’s not that a true friendship always has to be an even give on both sides of the equation at all times, but there does need to be a sense of giving on both sides for a friendship to be healthy and to last. Thanks for sharing!

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  3. It is inspiring for someone like me, who is also presently working hard on myself. I have been down there and wanted to get up and move up and as soon as possible. But I know it will take time and I have to be here, even if I don’t like it. I completely agree with with you.
    Lovely post. 😊

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  4. I completely agree. I’ve felt like this so many times in my life, and it is so hard to stay on track. Even while knowing this, I keep in my that if I take it day by day and be patient with myself, the pieces of the puzzle will fall into place and it’ll be okay.

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  5. Powerful words. I especially like the part that says that just because you’re feeling a certain way doesn’t mean you are becoming that person again. I feel like this past year has been a big growing pain for me. I let go of a best friend of 20 years who I realized wasn’t really a friend. I told her directly why we cannot be friends and I felt proud of myself. But, then, it surprised me the grieving process involved. Sometimes I felt guilty for letting her go. Sometimes I felt angry and resentful of her. The fact remains that I am stronger. I am moving on and growing.
    Thanks for those words of encouragement.

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  6. Wow this is amazing!! This is exactly what I needed to hear right now. I’m in a situation I feel like I have been in a thousand times before and yet I never learn. I was beating myself up but thankfully you reminded me that it’s okay to fall sometimes and it’s all part of growing as a human being!! THANK YOU!! ❤

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  7. Your words truly brought tears to my eyes. I had been feeling like I failed myself for letting old feelings back in when I thought I had become a stronger, and I get so disappointed in myself every time I feel like I’m back at square one. Thanks for reminding me I’m not alone and I’m not failing ❤ I really needed this ray of sunshine

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  9. A great post! I’m dealing with some rather heavy-handed depression at the moment and I’ve created a blog to try and find solidarity within myself and purpose. It has been a blast connecting with others and sharing our unique stories. Take care and thanks for checking out my blog!

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  10. Funning thing about feelings is that they appear undisciplined and unbounded. In reality…to actually shape and conform ourselves we actually have to start with a release…as you said perfectly “losing yourself”. Once again all well said. TC

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  11. I am loving your posts. Truly. And you’re dead right. I’ve got to want it 100% and I think that’s the part I’m sturggling with the most. I’m still so focused on wishing I could change things that have already happened and I’ve got to get out of that. Your words are perfect and I hope I can put them to good use soon

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